I now read the stories of girls gone before me and girls going with me... much younger girls.
Oh, how blessed to have begun this journey at such a young age!
They are 18. They are 20.
Doing such incredible, seemingly big things, at the onset of their independent lives.
... if I could have done this 12 years ago.
I am where I am at the time that I am. That God's glory would be manifest in my obedience at 30.
I am thirty.
"And who knows but that you have come to your [R]oyal position for such a time as this?” Esther 4:14
--oh my heart--
I have been purposed for this precise moment in the history of the world. Divine appointments established for a 30-year-old-happily-married-mother-of-five and her family in 2013-2015 in the Philippines.
I take JOY in the gift of His perfect plan for me! The plan that was not for me alone, but that includes sharing this adventure with my family of seven!
This magnificent life I have lived. The five marvelous children. The love of a strong and faithful husband. And now, to not go this alone... but to go with.
To get to step ten, one must begin at step one.
...and we each have a story of our own.
And who knew? But that we would be in the Philippines at such a time as this...
When all the days begin to feel as if they are one... a day without end... and we find ourselves, again, heading down the road to the mercy of those who are only concerned with the end of their own days, our minds and hearts and enthusiasm begin to flail and kick and grasp.
When the clock says 7:45 and our list has only seemed to grow and five little birds are chirping for dinner and nothing sounds sweeter than the pillow and no quick escape or moment to breathe...
When an attempt at order and plan is overcome with laundry and error -- dejection threatens.
Or is the perspective all wrong? Or are our eyes unfixed on Glory? Or is there purpose in things greuling?
When they let us down, and things become more complicated than less, and heart begins to faint. When time flies and things remain undone. Generosity is short and frustration is great. And when sleep evades the weary.
Only one thing remedies: The Word. That I would return and find the grace I need for just today... Will I remember that there is no better use of my minutes than surrendering my audience with the county clerk for an audience of Him. He rights wrongs and causes all things to work together. He calls and fulfills and orders and gives rest.
He is the beauty amidst the mess.
He is the road to the joy-filled life.
Strangely (to me), one of the most frequent phrases I've heard (not sure about Ben) is "What would possess you to do that/go there?" I didn't expect that question, as I thought it to be a bit obvious...
LOVE is what possessed us...
more specifically, GOD'S LOVE.
He's given us each a unique passion and talent for a single purpose... that we would use our giftings, solely, to bring Life to where there is much death.
And that call just happens to be two-fold in the Philippines.
...
Where it comes flowers grow
Lions sleep, gravestones roll
Where death dies all things come alive
Where it comes water’s clean
Children fed All believe
When death dies all things live
All things live
We may not be able to physically change every Filipino's circumstance. I may not be able to help
every Filipino woman deliver her baby safely. But this we can do: give to all those we come into contact with a hope beyond this life. A hope for a place where things are no longer hard or hopeless. A hope for beautiful Life.
Jesus overcame death that we might have that life -- the G.O.S.P.E.L. (Seriously. Check it out.)Call us. Text us. Facebook us. Whatever -- if you want to talk about it, we want to talk about it with you! If you were the only person left on the planet, there is absolutely nothing He would have done differently. He did it all for you.
Do you want to matter? Know Jesus.
Do you want to live with purpose? Know Jesus.
Do you have a sadness inside that you just can't shake? KNOW JESUS.
Are you afraid of dying? You won't have to be if you know Jesus.
Jesus is the answer.
For everything.
Yeah, do you want to really live? The answer is
Jesus. He is The Road to Life. So! in case you, also, were wondering...
Love
Love
Love
Love
that's what possessed us.